Wednesday, May 28, 2008

the price of being right

I didnt write this, it was sent to me by a great friend

This is a post that I copied from one of the many groups that I'm on. I like it mostly because it's not saying that Master is always right even when he's not, and it's not saying that you should humor your dominant and stroke their ego when they're doing something stupid.

It just says that you should make an effort to be *respectful* about it, and that is really what makes all the difference.

What Price being Right?

This one is almost all for the other submissives out there. Doms read on, but mostly to get a clue to what is going on in the subbie mind.
Okay folks... these are the rules, right?... Number one, Master is always right. And rule two, if Master should ever be wrong refer to rule one. Sounds nice, right? I wish it were that easy.

Most of the submissives I know are very strong independent woman, with lots of knowledge and know how. They are very good at taking care of themselves, so in good in fact that they have the time and energy to take care of others, namely their Doms. They all have this desire and need to submit, and yet fall into the same trap I have fallen into a million times.

Because they are so smart and independent in their own right, when they are right they know it. In the "normal" world they are used to saying, hey that isn't right and telling someone how it is.Does that sound like a sub? No, it sure doesn't. And there is the problem. I have seen it at home and everywhere. Master and sub talking, Master says something that sub knows is wrong, can be the smallest fact or the largest one. It doesn't even matter. But then here comes the mistake, the sub will correct the Master, sometimes even being silly enough to do this in front of others.
Now I know that doesn't sound so bad, and it won't be, if the Master thinks he might in fact be wrong, but God help you if he doesn't.
What happens next... the argument starts... and it doesn't get any better for some time to come. For the Master it was a challenge to his power, a show of a lack of trust, it was taking back of power. And you know what... they don't like that. It makes them ticked off and it is humiliating should the sub do this in front of others.

For the sub there is the frustration of knowing they are right but feeling like they are being blown off because they are the sub. This always seems to be followed by the line "but I know I was right".
Neither person is happy and it hurts the relationship.

Here is my advice... shut up!! Okay so you are right, if he does this it will turn out badly, the house you are looking for is on this street. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know you right.
If you got asked your opinion by all means give it. A Master isn't worth a damn if he doesn't ask his subs opinion about things.
But if you are just correcting him, DON'T!!! If when you tell the Dom, you know I think it was so and so in that movie, and his reply is no, it wasn't, just let it go. Shut up! Yep it was that person in that movie. Yes the laws do say that.

He will find out sooner or later that you were right but if you don't fight about it, then he never has to take the "I told you so" from you. He can keep his ego and pride intact.

After all we have asked this person to be our leader, to take care of us. Now is the time to take care of them. Let them have their opinions on things, and no matter how wrong they might be, let it go, and let them find it out for themselves.
Then you don't have to be the bad guy and you don't have to pay for making that person feel foolish or humiliated.
So you might think I am asking you to be a doormat. Well not really, I am asking you to decide if you want to be right or if you want to be happy, cause when you get in an argument about stuff with your Master chances are you can't be both.
At least I don't know anyone who can. I made this suggestion to a couple of friends along the way... and they tried it out.

It was hard, hell it was hard for me when I first started doing it. But in the end it worked. Letting that Dom take the roads they chose left them feeling their own power, and it let the submissive support them.
If it didn't work then the Dom didn't feel the need to be angry with the sub just waiting for the I told you so, or seeing it in her eyes.

So subbies, let it go. If you are right that is nice... but it won't get you cuddled most of the time, so just know what you know and shut the hell up.
These are grown up people you are dealing with. They have a right to their opinion and their mistakes. No matter how much we love them we don't have the right to take those choices away from them.

You asked them to have all this power in your life, now let them have it. The more power they feel, the better the Master they can be.

One little note for the Dom's out there that might be reading this... okay so your ego got a bruise because your sub said you were wrong and worse yet she said this in public. Well it is your choice how to behave too. You can tell her how to handle it differently, you can take charge enough to tell her why you didn't like it. These would be better options than just being hurt and angry about what that sub did. Consider that this person does have a mind and an opinion, and being a sub doesn't mean that went away.
And yep there is even a chance that your sub is right and you are wrong. If you are smart you will take this with good humor.

And thank her for those times when she knew you were wrong but didn't embarrass you by telling you in a room full of people, but waited respectfully to tell you later when you were alone. Or for those times when the sub shut up and let you make the errors, and then had the respect for your feelings to not say, I told you so.

-anonymous submissive-

Is enough ENOUGH

Well is sure have alot to learn. first of all I will tell you that one of the hardest rules for me and maybe all subs is the fact that we have no control over our punishments. I have this horrible habit of punishing myself to the point of numbness. I will eat until I am sick if I feel I deserve such a thing, I will go with out my meds to feel pain I feel I should ect.

Kirk has been sick for a week and so have I, but in that time I was owed quite the spanking. I hadnt completed my chores all week and I totally lost it with chocolate on Friday, I mean I ate sooooo much I was sick.

I ate it because I knew I was wrong and that I needed the spanking to help me make up for hurting myself and the happiness of my home and Kirk didnt/couldnt spank me for it..... it was building up and i couldnt wait. so I went alittle nuts.

so I had all of this spanking coming and finally I had pushed it to far when he found out about the choc.

I was expecting something terrible ( which Kirk hates when I try and predict what will happen) and because we couldnt get rid of the kids we had to "go for a ride"
we have a little dark lot that we can feel kinda safe going to and I lay the seat of the car back all the way and bare my but for the hairbrush and his hand. its not the best situation but it is all we can really do with kids in the house.

soooo I got the hairbursh, not too bad, and although I felt spanked it wasnt nearly enough to rid myself of the guilt. he had planed on making me get out of the car and stand against it for the belt but someone drove by. he didnt feel "I was done" yet so when we got home we took a chance at being heard and Kirk spanked me with his belt in the garage. I got 10 medium swats and he felt better.
the problem was I did not. I felt like I deserved soooo much more and I was very sad,but then he told me I am not allowed to decide how much is enough, it is he who punishes me and he alone decides how much.

this is really hard for me and most likely a large part of submission. I gave the control over to him and I have to abide by his choice. and if he says let it go, you are forgiven I must do that. Mostly because I trust him and I love him.

so far I dont know how I am going to resolve to that but I will try hard.

my rules as of now



  1. Keep the house uncluttered

  2. Have chores done by the time Kirk gets home.

  3. Go to bed together

  4. Stay in bed once there unless pain makes it to hard. No chatting online at night

  5. 8 hours of sleep per day

  6. No chocolate, unless approved

  7. Drink water- 2 bottles

  8. Take medications every day

  9. exercise every other day m-w-f

  10. make list for next day by bed time

  11. Do only what’s on the list -I have to learn to prioritize my list and stick to it. So I don’t over work and not be able to do anything the next day

  12. Hold kids to their responsibilities

  13. Track on sparks ( this is nutrition and diet website, its great really and has helped me with meal planning and fitness. and its free! http://www.sparkpeople.com/ )

  14. No lying ( 100 swats bare assed in our house)

  15. Wear seatbelt at all times


Tuesday, May 27, 2008

I need to keep up



sorry to al those who have come to see my blog only to find it not updated. I will do better!




I am still trying to learn my lessons and i am still getting spanked. i will update more tommorow. this is the insolence of me------------------------------------------->


this man is my teacher, my spanker, my lover and my best friend
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Friday, March 28, 2008

subs guide



  • Sub's Rights

  • I have the right to set Limits, and expect them to be respected.

  • I have the right to expect you to believe I am an Intelligent, Caring, and Loyal Person.

  • I have the right to be Trusted, provided I have Earned it.

  • I have the right to expect you to administer Your Punishment on me with Care and Caution.

  • I have the right to ask for Your Attention, without having to misbehave to get it.

  • I have the right to Question Your motives, should you deny my Requests, as long as I question with Proper Respect.

  • I have the right to expect Tenderness, Love and Understanding at all times including the moments I am being punished.

  • That Punishment does not mean Abuse.

  • I have the right to ask you for that Tenderness if I’ve had a bad day, or I just feel the Need for closeness.

  • I understand that there will be times when you and I will disagree about things.

  • I have the right to expect you to understand my Reasons, when I Respectfully express to you what I need.

  • I have the right to expect you to listen with an Open Mind and Heart.

  • I have the right to Voice my opinion, and expect you to Honestly Listen to and consider my Reasoning.

  • I expect you to have Final word, but I expect you to Whole-heartedly Consider my Feelings when making your decision.

  • I have the right to expect you to understand that deep Trust often breeds Love. For it is your pleasure that adds to my own and my pleasure that adds to yours.

  • I have the right to: Respect. No Husband may demean, abuse, harangue or hassle me in any way.

  • I am submissive, but should be treated with dignity and respect at all times. Choose. No Husband may demand my service. It is a most precious gift and mine to bestow. Safety. No Husband should ever compromise my safety.

  • I have the right to protect myself and to take whatever measures are necessary to do so. Put my Real Life First. No Husband may demand that I put aside my family, job, or other real life concerns for Him.

  • Know what is Expected of me. No Husband should expect me to be a mind reader.

    Sub's Creed
    I will communicate with complete Honesty of my Needs, Desires, Limits, and Experiences to my Husband.

  • I realize that Failing to do so will not only prevent my Husband and I from having the best experience possible, but it could also lead to physical and emotional harm.

  • I will not try to manipulate my Husband.

  • I will not push to make situations go the way I feel it should.

  • I will keep an Open Mind about trying things that I am not accustomed to.

  • I am willing to try and expand my limits. I will accept the Responsibility of Discovering what pleases my Husband, and will do my Best to fulfill His Wishes and Desires.

  • I will not allow myself to be Harmed or Abused, for I know that "submissive" Does Not Equal "doormat".

  • I will be Courteous and Helpful to all other submissives. I will never think myself a "better" submissive because I choose to submit on a different level than another.

  • I will not be boastful of experiences I have had as a submissive.

  • I will Share my Knowledge and Experiences with others in the hope that they will learn from where I have been.

  • I will take the time to help those new to the scene so they may begin on the correct path of submissiveness.

  • I will be Responsive to my Husband.

  • I will not try to hide what my Mind and Body are feeling from my Husband. By telling Him I assist Him in His responsibilities as my Authority.

  • I know that my Husband is not a telepath and I will not expect Him to know the thoughts or feelings in which I have not shared.

  • I know that my actions Reflect upon my Husband, and I will do my best to help others to see Him in a positive way.

  • I will Not intentionally Embarrass or Displease my Husband.

  • I will Never causes other to think that being submissive means to be weak or sub-human.

  • I will take pride in who and What I am, and will never show myself in a negative way.

  • I will continue to grow as a submissive and as a human being.

  • Above all, I will wear my title of submissiveness with Honor.


    This affirmation should be recited quietly, but aloud either going to bed each night or the first thing each morning. Quiet time should be set aside to allow the words to sink in. Read them slowly and thoughtfully each time.

  • Allow me the Inner Strength to express my true feelings and the trust to know He will understand and accept them as truth.

  • Allow me the Wisdom to know His needs and the Serenity to serve Him, graciously.

  • Allow me the Love to show Him whole-heartedly and the Tenderness to comfort Him selflessly.

  • Allow me the Knowledge to know when not to speak what's on my mind and the Kindness to not say what's on the tip of my tongue.

  • Allow me the Wisdom to be an asset to Him and the Peace of Mind in serving Him.

  • Allow me the Understanding when His day has been bad, and the Patience when mine has been.

  • Let my Eyes show Him the same Respect, whether I sit at His side, or kneel at His feet. Let my Daily Service to Him show Him how I Honestly feel about Him.

  • Let me Learn to please Him, completely and fully.

  • Grant me the Ability to give myself to Him, willingly and with my whole self.

  • Grant me the Talent, to Please U/us both fully and the Light to show U/us the way.

  • Permit me to Love myself more for Loving Him. For it is my Greatest Wish, my Highest Honor, to make His life complete, as He make mine.

again not sure who wrote this but i thank them with all my heart.

doms guides

Doms Creed

  • Above all else I cherish my wife, in the knowledge that the gift my wife gives me is the greatest gift of all.
  • I may be demanding and take full advantage of the power given to me, but know how to share the pleasure that comes from that precious gift.
  • I am in control of myself first and foremost, so that I may control my wife.
  • As a stern and demanding, I can cause my wife to cry real tears.
  • As the consummate lover, I will then kiss the tears away, without stepping out of character.
  • In times of trouble, I will leave the roles behind, to be a supportive friend and partner, never forgetting that this is still a loving relationship between two caring individuals.
  • I am quick to understand the differences between fantasy and reality.
  • I would never ask my wife to put me before their career, or family, just to satisfy my own pleasure.
  • To win my wife’s mind, body, spirit, soul, and love, I know I must first win her trust.
  • I will show my humor, kindness, and warmth.
  • I must always show my wife that my guidance and tutoring is knowledgeable and deserving of her attention, that this is a person she can learn from, and that she can trust My direction.
  • I am romantic enough to be protective and chivalrous. When called upon, I will fight for my wife’s honor.
  • I prove to my wife that I am someone she can lean on, and depend on.
  • When it comes time to teach my wife her lessons of obedience, I am a strong and unyielding professor.
  • I will accept no flaw. Nothing less than perfection from my wife, the student.
  • Never will I use discipline without a good reason. When I do punish my wife, it is always with a knowledgeable and careful hand.
  • I am always open to communication and discussion; always ready to hear my wife’s wants and needs.
  • I am patient; taking time to learn my wife’s limits, and knowing that as her trust of me grows, so will she.
  • I know my wife responds to me out of the want of pleasing Me.
  • Compliance comes from the wanting to please, not the fear of punishment.
  • I understand the fragile nature of mind and body and never violate the trust given to Me.
  • I am secure enough to laugh at myself and the absurdities of life.
  • Open minded enough to learn new things. Strong enough to grow.
  • My tools are mind, body, spirit, soul, and love.
  • I understand that we gain most from pleasuring each other.
  • And both of us know that love and trust are the only bindings that truly hold.

Doms responsibilities:
1. Trust: Your wife’s submission is a gift. It is your responsibility not to violate or abuse her trust in you. Whenever there are decisions you must make, you need to keep Both You and Your wife in mind, not just yourself.

2. Help: It is your responsibility to help your wife find what is already inside of her, and not try to create it for her. Before turning your attention toward your wife, you need to be the best Man You can possibly be. Bare in mind, this does not mean perfection, but it does not mean whimsical either.

3. Leadership: Your responsibility is not to take your leadership lightly and not to bail out of things get heavy. It is your responsibility to recognize that everyone is different, and your wife may not respond like your co-workers, friends, etc. You need to employ creativity rather than formula.

4. Communication: You know the key to bringing out the best in Your relationship lie in accumulating knowledge, communicating openly, and approaching the situation and Your spouse without hatred or animosity. It is your responsibility to guard your wife’s mental health-- to not guess or try to read “between the lines”, but to communicate openly with her.

5. Safety: It is your responsibility to make sure your wife is safe. You must be responsible for finding out what your wife’s true limits are, and staying within the boundaries those limit describe. You have a responsibility to discuss any punishments after its conclusion and to be open to any criticism that may come from your wife regarding the way things were handled.

6. Rules: It is your responsibility to involve your wife in the planning of her rules and their punishments, and to find out as much as possible about her desires and fantasies. To not be arrogant, but to actively seek help from your wife in discovering those areas in which you can improve. To not be misleading about yourself or your abilities.

7. Punishment: It is your responsibility to be stern. She may not like the punishment, but she will always respect you for it. You will continue your support and affection, especially while you are punishing her. You must never withhold your support and affection from her as a means of punishment. When you punish your wife, you must do so for the good of your wife, not just for the fulfillment of your own desires.

I am not sure who the auther is to these creeds but i am very thankful to have read them.


looking thru the window

Animated Spanking

My little dream



Well today is the day for my spanking.
I am sitting at my computer at 1:30pm. I keep watching the time because I know that at 2:00 daddy is coming over and he isn’t very happy with me.
The phone rings, I dread picking it up but I know I must and I hear his voice. “Little girl, I want you ready when I get there”
I am surprised and ask ‘what do you mean by ready?”
Daddy says “I want you lying on your bed, face down and 3 pillows under your hips; I want that bottom in the air.”
I don’t know what to say except “do I have to take my pants off?” there is a pause and I hear “I don’t suggest it, I am really angry and you will need protection. Now GO!”
I hang up the phone and I am shaking, I don’t know what I did to upset him and I don’t know what will happen. I decide to hurry and get into the position I was told to. It feels strange laying here like this; my mind starts to wander to my last spanking from Daddy. Suddenly I hear a jingling noise, I turn my head to see Daddy standing right next to me, and I didn’t hear him come in. I see what is making the noise and Daddy has been removing his belt. I get very scared and start to ask questions. I ask why he is taking it off, and is he going to use it on me, I ask if there is going to be a warm up first, why he is upset with me. Panic is setting in as he isn’t answering me. Daddy putts both ends of the belt together and makes a snap with it. I jump. I think about getting up and running out the door, but I don’t.
“Well baby girl. Looks like we have a problem here. Do you know why you are in your bed right now?” “No Daddy” I say. “My baby girl seems to have problems getting to bed and getting up in the morning like she is told to, isn’t that right?” I am too afraid to answer and I can hear a whoosh through the air before I feel the crack of the belt on my jeans. “You will answer me” another crack. “yes, yes I haven’t been going to bed” “very good, now I am going to give you 10 swats right now for making that the most broken rule, then we will proceed with the normal punishment.” I can’t believe that this isn’t part of the normal spanking that he is so mad that I broke one rule so much. “I am happy to see your bottom in the air waiting for my attention. Now I am going to spank you, after each one I want you to tell me what time is your curfew, understand?” “Yes, sir” Crack- 1 am, crack- 1 am…….. crack- owwww 1 am. “Now get up young lady.



Daddy stops and returns his belt to where it came from and slowly, alittle out of breath he says “my little girl you have till I get to 3 to have your face in the corner. 1….2….”
I jump up and do as I am told; there are no corners free of clutter (oops) so I stand in front of the closet door as I have done before. I am pretty clam and start to feel the burn building on my bottom. I am still angrily and stubborn.
When he comes back into the room he takes my arm and leads me over to a mirror, he undoes my button and pulls down my pants “ turn around and take a look” he turns me and I can see the welts and red marks forming, under my panties, I get a sinking feeling.
“Thank you for putting my chair here in the bed room. Come here and stand next to me. Now I am going to pull down your pants” “nooo” “fine you will right now” I don’t want to but I do as I am told and shimmy out of the jeans, I can feel the heat on my butt as they come down. “Now over my knee” I stand there unable to move I start to back away and feel like running, Daddy jumps up and grabs my wrist and pulls me down over his lap, I start to struggle and beg and plead. I feel the blows landing one after the other and I can feel the sting and heat building. After about 10 swats Daddy slows it all down, he tells me it is for my own good and if I dint fight him a few minutes ago the warm up would feel like this. The spanks are not very hard right now, just even from one cheek to the other, back and forth. I fall in to the rhythm of it all, I begin to relax and think of my misbehaviors. Daddy rubs my bottom which is sore already and tells me to get up, he stands behind me and guides me over to the closet door when he pats my bottom and tells me to stand there. I do as he tells me and catch my breath.
“So do you think that is good enough for this session?” “Yes daddy it is” as I reach down for my pants.
Daddy just grins at me “not even close little girl, out to the couch with you” I pull my jeans back up so I can walk; the pain of covering my bottom is intense. As I walk in front of him he reaches out and swats my butt as I walk. On the table in front of the couch I see the paddles. I cringe.
I sit down on the edge of the couch, a little too quickly for having such a tender bottom, but I don’t want to stand there, I have a sense that if I am sitting here he won’t be able to spank me somehow. Daddy walks over and sits on the couch. My insides are overwhelming me with anxiety. I know deep down that the punishment is not over and that I have done more wrong than not going to bed on time. I wonder why he is so calm at the moment and not saying anything.
He looks up at me and tells me “I have spanked you before and I am not sure what it is going to take to get through to you, you are a very stubborn little girl aren’t you?”
my heart sinks at the thought of disappointing and I lower my head, I whisper “ I’m sorry” at this moment I wish I could just jump across his lap and take his worst only to have the sadness and guilt stop.
I get my wish in just a minute when I hear Daddy sigh deeply. “Stand up right now” I obey what he tells me and now I am standing in front of him. “We aren’t going to have the same disobedience we did last time I told you to pull down your pants. If we do I will get the cane”
“ noooooooo no no not that!” I begin to slowly and carefully pull down my jeans. As I am doing this Daddy pulls out the same piece of paper from before. “Damn” I say before I think and Daddy reaches up and spanks my butt really hard “good girls don’t swear. Don’t do it again.”
“Now you will come here and you will go over my knee again. No arguing no comments just do it” there is a nasty small leather paddle that he keeps slapping against his hand.
I plan to lay all the way across but Daddy pulls me down to fast and I am only over one knee and up on the couch with my body. He folds one leg over mine and I get really freaked out. Is this going to be that bad that he has to pin my legs, I never move much before, what is going to happen? I can’t control myself and I begin to fight it, I squirm and beg to be let go.
Then without warning or words the first 5 blows land on my panty covered cheeks in a flurry of swats. “ owwwwwwwwwww” I howl. “ you will…. spank spank…stay still…spank spank spank spank spank. Do you understand… spank spank…. young lady spank spank spank.
“Oh my god this hurts daddy stoooop.” I plead
“Good I think my little angel is getting the hint” says daddy.
Daddy stops and rubs my sore bottom for me, it feels so much better but I am out of breath and feel like the swats are still falling.
“Now that we have that understood would you like to read this part of the note to me? He puts it in front of my face and I see what he has been looking at that made him so mad, it was a note that my friend Erica sent him telling him that I had gone 10 days without drinking all 8 glasses of water a day and I had been on the computer past 1 am another 10 days.
“ umm it says I am not drinking all of my water every day, but but daddy I am trying to…… I ..I get close every day. You can’t spank me for that!”
“What is the rule little one?” daddy said calmly. I have nothing to say.
Spank “do I have to repeat myself?”
“No daddy- ummm that I get 5 swats for each rule broken” I am talking so quietly now, holding my face in my hands, dreading what is next. I am laying there across his knee, feeling exposed and childish. His hand is resting/ rubbing my bottom over my panties.
“Ok so 20 times 5 is??????????” Daddy said, trying to be patient.
“NO YOU CAN’T THAT’S 100 SPANKINGS. NO DADDY PLEASE I HAVE HAD ENOUGH” I wonder why I am yelling this but I cant help it, I am really scared about what is about to happen, I feel my bottom and it is so hot already I cant endure more. I just know it.
“I cant hey, well here’s how it is going to go. We are breaking it up in 4 parts. First I am going spank this naughty bottom with my hand 40 times for the water. 8 spanks apiece for each glass of water you didn’t drink. So you will count the 8 at a time. Then I am going to do the same with the paddle. After that you will stand up and receive the next set with the strap. The same will be repeated for the bed time.
Daddy notices that I am not moving or arguing anymore. I am laying there and for the first time in a long time I am crying, I have resigned myself to the worst spanking of my life and given over myself to the man doing the spanking. My loving Daddy recognizes this and begins by slowly pulling down my panties.
“Oh daddy not that” I say very weakly knowing it wont matter but I still hope.
“Yes you are a very bad girl and because your Daddy loves you, you will have a very bad bare bottom spanking right now”
he begins very harshly and I am crying my eyes out, I had no idea a hand could cause so much pain but I try hard not to show that it hurts, I lay there and take my 40 hand spanks bravely ( or might be stubbornly) once again I am ordered to the corner.
Daddy walks in the room and has a sheet of paper in his hand… he says “alright young lady the first rule you will be punished for is the water. I feel that he has revved his arm back and is ready for this lesson. The paddle lands solidly on my right cheek and I let out a yelp. I decide to take this next part in silence and aside from the occasional yelp I am doing well. “38.,….39……40! Now stand up and get your face to that door.” As my hand reaches back Daddy warns “you touch that bottom and I will too.” I try not to cry and I try not to touch my bottom. I am feeling very sorry for myself now and I wish I had never asked for rules.

Now its time to deal with that bedtime curfew. Didn’t we discuss that this is for your health and your own good?” “Yes” I say quietly. “Well so is this, take 2 steps backward, place your hands on the door frame. Now bend over.” “Awww no please no”
“Are you disobeying your daddy?” I don’t answer I just bend over and hold onto the door frame. When I do I notice the strap in his hand. He places it on the bed and walks over to me; he reaches down and pulls down my panties. “Daddy I am to old to be bare, pleeeeeze don’t make me be bare I will go to bed I prommmmmis…..” I am trying to plead. Suddenly there is a loud crack and I feel the pain across my butt. Without the tiny cover and protection my panties gave the sting of the strap is intense.
“you will…..crack….go to bed…….crack…..when you are……crack…told! Crack crack.” You will….crack….. Be up…..crack… when …crack your daddy tells you to crack crack crack.” I can’t help but doing what is known as the spank dance and being still seems beyond my control.
Stand still and get bent over!” Crack crack crack.” Now tell me what you are going to do young lady” (sob) “I will go to be when I am supposed to and I will get up when I am told to….im sorrrryyyy.” “Good CRACK you better young lady because I will not tolerate insolence!”
Daddy stops and reaches for my panties, they are raised and he turns me to face him, he lifts my chin with his hand and looks into my eyes, he wipes the tears off my stained face and says “ you be my good little daddies girl now and all is forgiven, I have to do what’s best for you sweetie.” I am then held and rocked and feel safe and loved!

Friday, March 7, 2008

Accountability



Accountability----
I have really been thinking about this alot this week. I had suggested to Kirk that i was lacking motivation about the running of our household.


I asked him to help be break some bad habits and hold me accountable for any disharmony in our house. I have come up with a set of rules for myself, so he isnt the one telling me what to do here- i am.


i have gotten some great advice on how to handle it all, an decided a demerit system would work best with spankings if not followed through.
so i have been working on a chore chart and some consequences.
so it seemed to me to be all worked out but then i wonder if i should really be doing this, should i be working to be more of an equal partner to the man i am committed to? is all of this fair to my family. should i stand on my own two feet and tell him that i can and will self regulate my life? should we forget this whole accountability thing with rules and punishments and just have our spanking relationship as it started to be?

the thoughts i have are, can i do these things with out being reminded, checked up on and punished?
YES of course i can. I am a grown women, lived on my own for many years and survived without anyone helping me with them before. I am not a ditz woman or a freeloader. I am not a manipulator or entitled. I have paid my bills on time, managed a household (several if you include the fact i had to do it for my family since the age of about 6) and held myself accountable. I have been the personal secretary to my 2 sons for 16 years. raised my siblings and took care of my parents.sooo why do i want it now? good question.
maybe its because I AM TIRED!!!! ( not sleepy, just spent)i have been ultra responsible and ultra in dependant and strong.
maybe it is my MS and fibro that make me lose track of what i need to do, lord knows i cant remember a thing if it isnt written, i have notes to myself everywhere. maybe i feel safer knowing that it isnt all on me. maybe i am still in the pattern of being self destructive and clutter adds to my misery.



it isnt just house cleaning. for one I felt so loved when the rule came about for the seat belt wearing, i really mean it, it was incredible to be YELLED at because i didnt wear it. that someone loves me and worries about me being alive. then to be spanked because i forgot to wear it reinforced that i am lucky to be wanted. I think the worst spanking i ever received as an adult was for not taking my medications, for not taking care of myself. it was life altering.

i must say as a woman coming from an uncaring, self lead and unsupported childhood, this is the most loved i have ever felt. I guess the fact that the HOH cares so much about preserving harmony in the house, that he needs and wants us to be at peace is just as important.


I am great at getting myself into bad habits and terrible at breaking them. I guess accountability just speeds the process of self correction. i do want to be held accountable, it means that this man i have chosen to submit to wants the best for me.
these are ramblings and questions i must answer, i had hoped things would have become more clear as i wrote it all down. I still am not sure which way is right and which way is very selfish of me to ask him for.
I think i will go take a nap lol

Friday, February 29, 2008

the birth of a sub

this pic was how I met Kirk, he sent it to me and i couldn't resist sending him a thank you , i loved the idea of waking up and doing this. this is how my life started!



I have been around for a long time. i used to live my life more like a Dom than anything, i went to a all women's college and learned of the feminist ways and the tide of Independence for women. I believe it is wrong to strike or abuse a woman. I feel it is wrong to abusively control and restrict what a woman does. we have all seen the talk shows where men control there wives and girlfriends and beat them into submission. I believe these men to be cowards not worthy of a woman's love.


what i also have learned is that spanking and DD or HOH lifestyle is not that of the talk shows and all of the leadership done in our lifestyle is done with love and meant to guide and build on the person we are.


what i now know is that some ppl are born dominate and some are born submissive. you cant fight your true self.

i am still a very independent woman and god forbid anything would ever happen to Kirk :(

I would be able to survive with out him telling me each and every step.


i never thought of myself as a sub, i am 39 and just realized that it is my true path. i have always wanted to be cared for but i thought it was wrong, i thought i had to be a career woman with the Independence and power of a man. i married a man who was a sub also and i resented having to be the dom in the relationship ( we didn't know the roles at the time and we very vanilla) i stay with him for 16 horrible years and finally went out on my own. i was a single mom for 3 years and we did fine with me as HOH. i have 2 teenage sons and i worried what that would be like for them without a strong responsible man to be in the lead.


last July i met a wonderful man on myspace, we began a relationship of a spanking nature, he lives 400 miles away but it became very obvious we were made for each other. i gave up my life in WI and moved here with him, i am now happier than i have ever been. we have a HOH relationship now and i am loving it. it is my natural place in our home.


i am the caretaker for the family and he is the boss. i am guided not to hurt myself with self destructive ways and i am able to love and pamper my man. he actually is surprised by what i want to do for him. I am sad when he is sad, i am mad at myself when he isn't pleased about something.


i have learned that it takes a very strong woman to serve a family and a man. to be the one who fights for the Harmony of the home. I find there is great joy in seeing my family relax when they come home, having time to play and joke instead of clean and fuss.


because i have MS, i thought my contributions to the family and the house would never equal what my HOH does for us in working hard to bring in the money. I have very little money coming in and sometimes i feel like i am not doing my share. he is very supportive and trying to make me feel like i am doing alot for us. so even though i am not a neat person i am trying to be for my family.



i am proud to be a sub ( though i couldn't ever be a slave) i love my spankings and the freedom to be myself.i would never go back to any other way of life!

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

sweet valentines day


well, here i am spanked again, wish i had a better figure but this is it for now. lol- dont know if your suposed to post this kind of pic but myspace wont let me so here it is.



this pic is from a fun weekend getaway for Valentines day. we had tons of fun and my bottom is the proof. yes chocolate body paint.


I ended up with a new toy for our collection out of the trip. we stold a wooden rod from the hanger in the closet. man that thing is wicked. I hope it is only used for really bad punishments i was skillfully striped that day. but the pic is mostly from the hairbrush. something i usually dont get much of.
the real hard part was going into the hot tub with that red ass! wooooo hoooo

Wednesday, February 6, 2008


the top is a razor strop Kirk found at an antique mall. it is well used and worn... even more so now
and the bottom is a pic of the daddies belt that is only used when i am very bad. it is a replica of the one my father used on me and is a very effective trigger implement

The night before last i crossed a line in our relationship that i shouldnt have crossed. i get to spank kirk sometimes and right now he is getting a nightly spanking for every cig he smokes. ( he had quit months ago and slipped back into it a few weeks ago. he finally confessed and we worked out that he would quit again march 1st. so he gets to smoke for awhile but as a detrant he recives one stroke of the cane for every one.) but we had gone for a drive and he pulled off into a dard deserted lot and i got a nice spanking with a hairbrush. i had to lay my seat back all the way, turn around and pull down my pants. i got maybe 50 smacks. i felt warm and loved.
then i got playful and wanted him to take a turn. i told him that the swats could be for the smoking. but i changed my mind, feeling playful i began swatting faster. he yelled " hey thats more than 8! and i said yea i know. well he turned over fast and was very quiet. he was disapointed in me.

he told me that he trusted me and i had betrayed his trust. that i have to do what i say i am going to.

i felt terriable, i cried and told him i was sorry, that i just hadnt thought it through. he was wonderful and warm and forgave me with the promice that i would never do it again.

it could have been the end of that whole situation but i felt soooo guilty that the next day we had some alone time to play or punish. heres what happened.


i dropped my sons off at basketball pratice so that gave up about 2 hours to ourselves. i walked in the door and didnt see him right away. sometimes that means he is still preparing for me. so i just hung around for a bit until he came into the room.

i hugged him and told him how very very sorry iwas and that i would never lie to him again.

he held me and told me it was all ok and all was forgiven yesterday. but he looked into my eyes and said " you havent forgiven yourself have you?"

" no, I just cant seem to" I said

he took my hand and lead me up the stairs to our room. he hugged and kissed me again and told me to lay on the bed. he then put a pillow under my hips and left me there for a few minutes while he retieved an implament.

our rule is 100 swats on the bare, with a belt for any lie, so i knew i was in trouble.
sure enough he walked out with "daddies belt" and the razor strop.

i started to sob and held onto the bed for dear life.

" what are you being spanked for naughty girl?" he asked

" because i lied to you and tricked you and your trust means alot to me. I want you to trust me." i said

" ok count off" he said sternly and i did.
the pain was intence as he never goes easy with a punishment spanking it was hard right from the start.

when we got to 50 he stopped and i caught my breath alittle. he then switched to the razor strop, man that old time thing is wicked.
after 50 more of the strap, all basicly in the same 4 inch space, right on my sit spot i was allowed to get up. i was held in his loveing arms until i stopped crying and as he wispered "shhhh its all over now, its ok" i felt the most peaceful warmth pass over me.
i read somewhere that it is amzing what our bruises show that our heart feels.










Tuesday, February 5, 2008

nice pic

I love this pic. it shows how a wonderful DD relationship can feel. i feel like this after a spanking by Kirk. i feel like he has me supported in his hands and i am safe.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Spanking as a child


Ok I know this is going to sound bad, and make you all wonder why the hell I am into spanking after this life but I can’t exactly say other than there were rules and consequences for breaking those rules. It was cut and dry. Break a rule, be punished … move on. When do we get that in our world today? Other than speed, ticket…. Pay. You have to commit a crime! Ahhh so anyway here is my story.


As a child I was spanked as early as 4 years old. My father would make me stand next to him while he sat in his recliner. He would tell me that I was about to be spanked and he knew it was going to hurt and that I didn’t want to do it, but if I didn’t listen he would have to get his belt. I was always very afraid. Then he would pull down my pants and I was to lay over the extended foot rest of the recliner. He would place one hand on my back and begin spanking. Even very young the spankings left my bottom red and sore; this was his usual method, for years until about 6.

As I got older the over the knee or cushion was not used much. I was spanked several times a week. At about 6 my father no longer threatened the belt he used it. There was a few ways he would do it.

Some times ( a little older) if my brothers and I would not go to sleep he would come in with the belt, we were ordered to “turn over NOW” and we would turn over on our tummy he would spank us until we cried, he would leave the room and we cried ourselves to sleep.

One was to make me do everything; there was as much punishment in the preparations as there was in the actual spanking. I was ordered to go and get his belt from its spot on his bedroom wall and present it to him. There were no words allowed and most times I didn’t even know what I had done. I then had to pull down my pants and underwear and bend over and put my hands on my knees, and then I had to apologize and discuss what I was being spanked for. The whole time having my bottom exposed and listening to my father crack the leather belt. I had to stay in position and not move. It was very important that I seemed to be presenting my bottom for what I deserved. I was spanked until the bruises began to show and I was very weak. After I usually had to be helped to bed, because my legs were weak and I had cried all of my tears.

The other form was more instant, spontaneous. He would grab onto me and yank my pants down; he would have the belt ready and hold me under his arm for about 10 swats. Then when we were both tired he would let me go and command that I get into position.
There was no talking or asking why it was hard and fast.

My father made me count, I had no idea how many I was going to get and I don’t think he knew how many he was about to give. But I had to count, if I lost count he would begin again. If I moved and made him have bad contact it wouldn’t count. I would easily receive over 100 swats with the belt. He ranged from taking his time and preparing each swat, talking about the offence in between to suddenly giving 10 hard swats in a row, then back to the slower form.

I received severe bare bottom spankings/beatings on a regular basis until I was about 13. After that there were only a few every few months. There were plenty in front of relatives and my siblings. My last spanking by my father was when I was 16, it was bare bottomed and I took it by choice for my little brother. I didn’t wait for him to say a thing, I just went and got that belt, plopped it in his hand and bared myself, grabbed my knees and told him to get on with it. It was embarrassing to be bare but I didn’t think too much of that. My father spanked me with that same dreaded belt (that he oiled for the occasion) for a half hour. He spanked me over 200 times, trying to get me to cry and I did not. I had finally showed my father that I couldn’t be broken, that he hadn’t “tamed” me after all and I was a stubborn as he was. I couldn’t walk for 3 days after that one.

I left home at 18 and had my first adult spanking experience when I was 20. My then fiancĂ© was joking around with me and a friend of his in my bedroom and next thing I knew I had said something he didn’t like and I was over his knee in seconds. He spanked me over my jeans about 20 times until I said I was sorry and let me up. Our friend laughed and I just sat there stunned. I didn’t know what a TOP or Dom was back then but I am guessing that this guy made one hell of one. I didn’t marry that one though. I did marry a spineless ass who couldn’t tame/guide/spank/love anyone. I was spanked a few times by him but it was weak and left me very unsatisfied.


so now i am here today. this was a long road but i have fially found happiness!

memories of a spanking

yea thats me. ick and ouch
This is an account of a real spanking that I had earlier this year. Many more were to follow- just not with this same guy. He turned out to be married ( wife didn’t know) and I wasn’t totally comfortable with that, and I have MS. It seemed to have reared its ugly head just when I was getting into the life…. I had to stop and thought my life of spanking was over. But I have met a great guy, in the medical field and he knows just how to take care of me.


July 07-
Today I had my first spanking in 3 years and let me tell you it was the worst since my childhood.

I met the man we can call Jim through my space. He was a local man looking for a woman to develop a spanking relationship with. I was new to the idea that there are so many ppl out there interested in spanking. I always thought I would have to be in a relationship before I would ever get a spanking again and since my divorce a few months ago, I don’t see that happening for along time. So Jim or daddy as he wanted me to call him talked me into going for my dreams instead of waiting. I wore the skirt I was ordered to and had my school girl look pretty good. We agreed that this would be non sexual and I had been thinking of him as a “Daddy” for a few months.

He came to my house and I have to say I felt pretty at ease with him, I had talked long enough that I trusted him so we sat down on the couch and began.

We talked first about my misbehavior ( rules I had set for myself and of course I have trouble following) and then he calmly told to go to my bedroom where he followed with an armless chair. He placed it in the middle and told me to come over to him. He sat down and told me to lay across his lap.

I was shaking and had my hands over my face, I couldn’t look at him or the lap I was suppose to be over. I kept thinking, I am to big to stay on his lap, im huge oh I have to get out of this one. I was so afraid to take the chance so afraid that it would both be what I wanted and maybe not enough.

He stayed clam and soothing and rubbed my back as I stood by his side, he said he would wait till I was ready. I said I don’t think I have the strength to and he said take your time. I was glad he was patient. I had told him that I may fight it and that I didn’t want him to let me back out. But he saw that I was preparing myself.

I took a deep breath and laid down. I could barely touch the ground on both sides and I felt stuck, like I had taken the leap. He pulled up my skirt and rubbed my bottom for a moment and asked if I was ready, I felt a giggle rise up over me and realized I was so nervous. It was a bare bottom spanking because of the panties I had worn, they had creped up and I was more exposed than I wanted to be.
Then he started, with his hand spanking both cheeks at a good pace, he stopped and rubbed every 10 swats or so and gave me a rest. I was amazed at how much it hurt and how it took my breath away. He talked soothingly and told me to breath and calm down. I think I was hyperventilating a little. He spanked me again faster and harder. I had thought that that was the end of the spanking, it would have been ok for the first one.

Then he told me to stand up and face a closet door. ( I didn’t have any available corners…. Hmmm wonder why lol) He left the room. My ass was on fire and I was trying to catch my breath. I was glad to be alone for a minute and I really dislike the corner thing.
When he came back he told me to put my hands on the chair, then to lower my head to the seat. I had no idea how much that tightness made it worse. He had brought in a strap. He gave me 10 quick and hard swats with it and I was shaking. Back to the door. He then put me over his knee again and began very hard spanks, in the same spot for about 10 each. I was kicking a little by then and was in shock at how hard he could spank.

He stood me up and we took a break, we sat in the living room and talked about how my father had spanked me and how much I had taken back then. He then put me over his knee on the couch ( I liked this a lot more, it was more comfortable) and he spanked me with his hand again, then he reached over and got this ping pong paddle and began with that. I was kicking a little more with that and kept paddling. When he stopped and had me sit up I couldn’t sit very well.

He let me rest again and then it was back to the bed room where he had me bend on the bed like the chair and gave me a few spanks with his hand. He told me to take off my skirt and I did. He didn’t make me take my panties off, but then again he didn’t really need to they didn’t cover much. I was ordered back into position and he left the room and brought back the worst looking paddle I have ever seen. It was about 12 inches long made of unfinished wood, I told him I was afraid of that one and he said I would have to try it.
OMG I took one hit and I propelled me forward, I saw stars. I don’t know if it was his full force but man that hurt. I told him I couldn’t take another one, and he said ok baby girl. He told me to stand at the door again.

Then he told me to lay face down on my bed. He began to spank me hard with his hand again , it was terrible and I just clinched the pillow. suddenly he was laying in the bed next to me and told me to turn over, he comforted me and then when my breath came back asked me if I knew what was next.
I couldn’t think and I said no. what could he possibly mean?
he said I better give him an answer or he would give me 5 more than he planned, I panicked and hoped it wasn’t that paddle and he saw I was confused.
he said “now what did Daddy just give you after the hand spanking before?” oh crap, I reluctantly said the strap.
He said “yes and now I want you to asked to be spanked with the strap.”
I couldn’t make myself say to those words I just sat there with my mouth open. I thought girl are you nuts, your actually going to have to verbally ask a man to spank you with a strap? He wasn’t to happy with my lack of quick response and he started to say he was adding more swats and I just said it, it just came out and he got up, ordered me to remain on the bed and then got the strap. ( which was a belt that had been cut in half BTW)

He was moving hard and fast and I started to whimper and really kick my legs, and wiggle around. It hurt like hell. He asked me if I had had enough and I just shook my head yes, and kept my face buried.
He rubbed my butt and told me I had taken my spanking like a good girl and that I had a very spankable butt. I thought he was done but as I answered a text from a good friend who was my safety contact he was examining his work.
He brought out a wooden dowel and told me I would have to try that also and bent me over the couch. He was very nice and only gave me a few but that was all I could take.

He suggested we take pictures and I said I dint mind, even If I have a big butt. Before he did that though he said he thought I needed 10 more with the paddle. So it was back over the knee on the couch and he lowered my panties, he gave me 10 very hard spanks ( he says 10- I say it was 11 but who can argue)
during the spanking I was kicking and my leg fell off the couch and several spanks were given to the inner side of my cheeks ouch.
He then used his had for a few more minutes and made sure all areas were cherry red.
For the end swats he asked me if I wanted the next on the thighs or butt? Ohhh hard question there, I took a few minutes and of course chose the butt- sooo he spanked onto of my thighs, that was not fair!!!!!!!!!
We had to go after that but he made sure to set the next date for a spanking. I had to drive 30 miles to pick up my kids and my ass hurt to even bend or move the skin. I dint cry but I feel a sense of relief and satisfaction that I went through more than I had planned and I sit here now in agony typing this but I didn’t want to for

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Dawn's phone bill

this Pic scares the hell out of me............... I hate that moment the most
So what did I do to deserve this last spanking? well lets start here.

Well, I really over spent for the holidays ( who doesnt right?)and while he appreciated it, he was not happy that I took it all on myself and didn't ask him to chip in. I have trouble asking for help. Then I got my cell phone bill for $500 for 2 months worth of calls, he is really was disappointed in me.



Then I have been pretty sick for a few weeks and I was told not to go out of the house and stay and rest. I had so much to do, so much to still get so i whined alittle, turned on the charm and I asked if it was ok just to run to the store for an ingredient for dinner and he gave in.



well when I went to the store I ran to a few more that I needed to0, he had gone to do some shopping himself and i thought i could get back home and he would never know. He beat me back home and wasn't happy at all that I took so long, I half kidding said that I had just left recently and it wasn't really that long... he saw right through that and well, that's the reason for the spanking. it didnt take place for a few days and the guilt was mounting.



one night i was crying and really upset, so he put me to bed and took my sons to a movie (by themselves). I laid there and sobbed and of course wondered what he was going to do when he came home. he wasnt mad anymore he was more concerned that i felt neglected and that i had told him that the guilt was making me want to do something to punish myself. we had agreed that i would never do anything like that again, that i was to allow him to hand out the punishments. ( i had dont things like deprive myself of food, sleep or heath care in the past).



I heard him come in the front door and i covered my head with the blanket, i was sure what i should do, i wasnt sure what he would do, i knew i was in for a spanking but not much else.

when he came home he came upstairs and helped me up, he was calm and gentel and i didnt resist, i walked with my head down and he lead me by the hand downstairs to the couch. he had me stand in front of him and he took down my pants and held my wrist as he pulled me over his knee, he gave little laugh when he saw my panties said chill out across the butt. It didn't lighten the situation much though. he thought better for a moment and decided i was missing something and he then made me stand up and watch him as he rolled up his sleeves, saying I know how much you love to see me get prepared for your butt warming.
He spanked me hard with his hand first and made me tell him what the spanking was for. Then he had a hairbrush paddle that he began spanking me with it first with my panties then without. ( panties never stay on long)
He then took out a leather paddle shaped like a heart and spanked me with that for awhile to show me his love for my health then he led me to the kitchen where I had to lean over the counter and receive the strap he had just bought. I got about 25 there and he knew my legs were getting sore and made me bend over the arm of the chair for the cell phone and lying to him. he seemed almost happy about the new position he had discovered.

I have such a high pain tolerance I never thought someone could reach my edge, but he sure did and I was very humbled and punished. we have a unritten rule in our house that if you lie you recieve 100 with the belt, so I wont be doing that again. not that i dont have confessions to make, thats another day.

my current spanking life

I guess this should have been my first post but thats the procrastinator in me. ok my name is Dawn and i have been "into" spanking as long as i can remember. some say it is suprising because i was more than well spanked as a child. I will post about that later but you would think i had enough at that time.

my last spanking by my father was when i was about 16, i took it willingly for my brothers actions.
then i had a boyfriend at 19 who out of the blue one day took me over his knee on my bed and spanked my but. i didnt want it to stop..... i felt so many emotions and excitement.

i didnt marry that guy lol i thought he was to controling, now i know he is probably a perfect TOP. no instead i married a weasle, a man with no back bone whatsoever! man was i stupid. i was the one in charge and it was uncomfortable. i did ask his to spank me eventually about 1o years into our misrable marriage and he did alittle. i told him he could have free shots, totaly have revenge for whatever misgivings he thought i had. well, he didnt.

that taught me that there is a much worse way to punish someone than spanking them. he held grudges and withheld love. I finnaly freed myself of his posin after he abused my oldest son.
ok enough of that ass.

i met one man on myspace back in July of this year and he was willing to be a "daddy" for me and spank me. it had been 3 years since my last one and being a single mom, living on my own i was in a deeply stressed situation. so i met with him and sure enough he spanked my butt good. ( will write more later). but it didnt really work out for us and that was the onky time he did.

i met another man thru myspace and he was wonderful. we connected in such wonderful ways and he drove 400 miles to come to Wi and spank my naughty self. it was an amazing experience and we fell in love quickly. that takes me to my life today.

I am madly and deeply in love with my spanker, best friend, lover and man.
and he spankes me when i need it and loves me to death.
i moved to MO and have lived with Kirk for about 4 months.

sooooo here is a few spanking stories i hope you enjoy

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

spanking survey
Have you ever gotten spanked?: HELL YEAH
Do you like to be spanked?: Yes
Are you bad?: sometimes, mostly bratty
Are you spanked over you pants or pants and undies pulled down?: Both mostly bare butt
What is your favorite thing about spanking?: the emotional release, the forgiveness
Do you get spanked hard?: yes
What position are you in when getting spanked?: OTK, over the bed, on the bed flat.
What do you like to be spanked with?: ummm nothing but i get- hand, belt/strap, some paddle.
Who spanks you?: Kirk, my one and only
How long does the spanking last?: a few hours with breaks
When is the last time you got spanked?: this past weekend
Do you spank yourself?: no, nowhere near the same
Do you have a spanking fetish?: yes
After your spanking is over do you still act bratty later on?: no- not right away anyway
How hard do you get spanked?: very very hard- buns of steel
Have you ever gotten your butt belted?: Yes lots
Have you ever gotten your butt paddled?: yes a few times
Have you ever gotten spanked in public?: No
What do you get spanked with the most?: hand, belt
On a scale of 1-10 how much does the spanking hurt?: 8-10
Do you feel you deserve it?: yes, i like them for play as well but we all do things we would rather we didnt so.....
What do you get spanked for?: not following my own rules
How many times have you gotten spanked?:thousands as a kid, as an adult, the fun is just begining
How many times the spanker spank you during the spanking?: never counted over 200, i can take ALOT
What do you do to deserve them?: not following my own rules, not being safe, causing myself pain
Have you ever gotten spanked infront your friends?: yes, one friend one time
Have you ever gotten you butt caned?: YES, hated it
Do you like the pain of the spanking?: yes
Have you ever gotten spanked with a wooden spoon?: yes
Have you ever gotten spanked with a hairbrush?: yes not much, ohh the sting of it
Have you ever asked to be spanked for something you did wrong?: very recently
Is spanking a big part of your everyday life?: yes
Do you get spanked more than once a day?: not yet
How often do you get spanked?: about once a week
Is your butt red and sore afterwards?: yes and bruised
Do you spanked gently or hard?: very very hard
Have you ever gotten spanked with a sneaker?: no
Do you believe in spanking?: yes - adults
Have you ever been spanked so hard that you started to cry?: yes many times
What age Do you started getting spanked?: 4-5years old
Do you still a get spanked?: yes
Do you think that spanking is a good punishment?: yes
Have you ever gotten spanked for swearing?: no, but i should
Do you think spanking is fun?: yes
What does the spanker say to you before your spanking?: its time young lady. sometimes nothing
Have you ever gotten spanked for getting bad grades?: yes
Have you ever gotten a spanking for no reason at all?: YES
Have you ever gotten spanked by a teacher?: no
Is your butt spankable?:yes, i have been told
Who spanks you the most?: THE MAN I LOVE
Is spanking your hobbie?: hmmmm
Do you want a spanking right now?: Yes
Do you get lectured during the spanking?: i like to
Have you ever gotten spanked with your butt in the air?: yes
Have you ever gotten spanked so hard you butt was swollen?: YES
Have you ever watched someone else you know getting spanked?: yes
Do you hate spankings?: no!
Have you ever spanked someone: yes, and i like it
Did they learn their lesson?: sure, i think so.. hmm better check
How many people spank you?: only been 4, now and forever only one
Is spanking allowed in your family?: as a kid family yes, own kids no
Have you ever been spanked with more than one spanking instrument?: yes all the time
Have you ever gotten spanked for lying?: yeah
Have you ever gotten spanked for cursing?: No, but i should