the birth of a sub

this pic was how I met Kirk, he sent it to me and i couldn't resist sending him a thank you , i loved the idea of waking up and doing this. this is how my life started!

I have been around for a long time. i used to live my life more like a Dom than anything, i went to a all women's college and learned of the feminist ways and the tide of Independence for women. I believe it is wrong to strike or abuse a woman. I feel it is wrong to abusively control and restrict what a woman does. we have all seen the talk shows where men control there wives and girlfriends and beat them into submission. I believe these men to be cowards not worthy of a woman's love.

what i also have learned is that spanking and DD or HOH lifestyle is not that of the talk shows and all of the leadership done in our lifestyle is done with love and meant to guide and build on the person we are.

what i now know is that some ppl are born dominate and some are born submissive. you cant fight your true self.

i am still a very independent woman and god forbid anything would ever happen to Kirk :(

I would be able to survive with out him telling me each and every step.

i never thought of myself as a sub, i am 39 and just realized that it is my true path. i have always wanted to be cared for but i thought it was wrong, i thought i had to be a career woman with the Independence and power of a man. i married a man who was a sub also and i resented having to be the dom in the relationship ( we didn't know the roles at the time and we very vanilla) i stay with him for 16 horrible years and finally went out on my own. i was a single mom for 3 years and we did fine with me as HOH. i have 2 teenage sons and i worried what that would be like for them without a strong responsible man to be in the lead.

last July i met a wonderful man on myspace, we began a relationship of a spanking nature, he lives 400 miles away but it became very obvious we were made for each other. i gave up my life in WI and moved here with him, i am now happier than i have ever been. we have a HOH relationship now and i am loving it. it is my natural place in our home.

i am the caretaker for the family and he is the boss. i am guided not to hurt myself with self destructive ways and i am able to love and pamper my man. he actually is surprised by what i want to do for him. I am sad when he is sad, i am mad at myself when he isn't pleased about something.

i have learned that it takes a very strong woman to serve a family and a man. to be the one who fights for the Harmony of the home. I find there is great joy in seeing my family relax when they come home, having time to play and joke instead of clean and fuss.

because i have MS, i thought my contributions to the family and the house would never equal what my HOH does for us in working hard to bring in the money. I have very little money coming in and sometimes i feel like i am not doing my share. he is very supportive and trying to make me feel like i am doing alot for us. so even though i am not a neat person i am trying to be for my family.

i am proud to be a sub ( though i couldn't ever be a slave) i love my spankings and the freedom to be myself.i would never go back to any other way of life!